You Deserve Good Things

Reaching out to give,

Extending to receive.

I go through periods of seeing life for what it is rather than how I can interpret it.

We are living our lives, not knowing how it will all end.

I like to think most of us try, a few more than others, to be good and do good, or else we’d be caught in a vast sea of uncontrollable chaos.

Those of us who project a lot of positive energy and smile all the time have it harder, constantly projecting someone nonstop that we are not. At some point, we convinced ourselves that we did not deserve goodness simply by being, but we had to earn it from external forces.

Hiding behind fake smiles seems easy, but in the long haul, it is difficult. It took me living through some part of my adulthood to understand that I can decide that I do not want to continue to appear okay all the time.

There are days when I cannot bring myself to play my part in this unjust, unkept, uptight society that yoyo’s back and forth with force and no resistance to demand justice. 

Am I afraid? Was I always scared of allowing myself a life full of good? 

No, because I was taught this, and now I need to unlearn with everyone else.

The major problem is that we are all in different stages of this in our tiny big world.

When and why did we conclude that we needed to deserve good?

Is that not an innate divine right?

Sure, we can help ourselves with even more goodness by being good on top of that innateness.

I can understand why everyone should not get everything they want, but we still deserve good things to happen to us.

The good things that happen to us direct us to pursue meaning, purpose, and the understanding of love surrounding everything.

You breathe. That is a good thing, you deserve.

You eat a perfectly ripe fruit. That is a good thing, you deserve.

You share a smile with a stranger. That is a good thing, you deserve.

You deserve good things in moderation, and to let your appreciation be felt.

I have seen how appreciation can be undermined by normalcy. If good things happen too often, it can get in your way. It can leave you expecting something when sometimes you might be expecting the wrong thing for yourself.

Moderation filters for long-lasting appreciation, looking forward, wanting to live even through challenges.

I want to be more grateful, I deserve that feeling because it is one of the best ones.

You deserve to feel gratitude, it is not a feeling of owing anyone—it is a feeling closer to love, a sense of security and protection, allowing room for reciprocation.

You want to be grateful because it makes life worth living. That is a good thing, you deserve.

You deserve the gift of good things because you are living, please be and receive it.